My boys are growing up.
Obviously I know this but it really sunk in over the last few days.
Last night, while I was giving the boys a bath, I stopped – all thoughts and chatter in my mind – and just watched them. My mind almost saw their cute little faces morph into those of teenage boys and I couldn’t help but tear up.
Then my moment was interrupted when The Boss said:
“Mommy, when I grow up I want to marry you.”
Heart melt.
“I love you baby. But when you grow up you’re going to marry someone else.”
Pause.
“When we grow up, are you going to have other kids?”
I was floored.
“No, honey. I’ll still be with you when you grow up. You and Daniel will always be my babies.” I said.
And with that, I started to cry.
“Why are you crying mommy?” The Boss asked.
“Because you’re growing up so fast,” I replied.
I want them to be kids forever.
I want to cherish this moment forever.
I want that image of them, like this, at this age, etched forever in my brain so that I can pull from my memory whenever I want to relive these precious moments.
It left me feeling terribly sad.
“Do you want us to stay kids?”
I nodded.
“Do you miss when we were babies?”
I nodded again.
“Mommy don’t worry, I’m only 6 ½,” The Boss reassured me.
“It’s ok mommy, I won’t grow up too fast,” The Destroyer chimed in.
Heart melt.
This was just another reminder that I need to slow down and enjoy these precious moments amidst the chaos of our lives.
Because it all really does go by too fast.
My hope is that my boys will always remain close to me. And although I realize this may not be the case, I know I will try my absolute best to make sure that I am nearby.
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Aww, so adorable AND takes me back. I tried SO hard to keep my one & only, young as long as possible! Didn’t want him to grow up. BUT unfortunately they do, and I know you’ll be as proud of them as young men as I am of mine! And YES – I think boys stay closer to their Moms than Dads! xo
Beautiful post. My one and only just turned 6 and every day I learn from her, laugh with her and see the world through her eyes and it’s amazing. I just wish it didn’t go by so quickly…
Thank you Tonya 🙂
Oh, so sad and so true. The time is magical but all too brief. My son went to his first solo playgroup today — a whole 2 hours without me. Think I found it harder than he did…
Oh yes it’s definitely tougher on us… thanks for your comment 🙂