Today is World Mental Health Day, a day for global mental health education, awareness and
advocacy against social stigma.
I’m sorry I can’t come to the phone right now. I’m currently out of commission. Not that I don’t wish to speak to you, or see your lovely face, because I do. But I just can’t at the moment because I’m stuck under a dark cloud and I can’t seem to clear the fog.
You see, Depression and Anxiety crept up on me when I woke up this morning. They must have sneaked into my dreams during the night, and seeped its darkness deep within my brain. They’ve decided they are lingering today.
Depression and Anxiety are visiting at the moment. I don’t know why today they decided to take control, but they did. I can’t do anything to escape their strong hold. I must succumb to their will – at least for today.
You must understand, it’s not really a choice of mine. I did want to see and talk to you, and enjoy that cup of coffee so we could catch up on work, the kids and your last vacation. I would’ve loved to share with you some of my finer moments where Depression and Anxiety felt like a distant memory.
But those moments are temporary. Living with Depression and Anxiety means I can’t control when they will decide to come out and play. I can’t control when I’m going to have a bad day. Even though I can manage most of the time, some days, the weight of the world seems too much to bear.
I don’t want you to think I’m avoiding you, or don’t want to see you. But I’m having a tough go right now, and I don’t have the physical or mental energy to attempt a conversation.
So please forgive me if I bail on you, or don’t pick up the phone when you call, or take too long to message you back. I do want to talk to you, but I’m in self-preservation mode right now.
Leave me a message – I do appreciate any kinds words – and I’ll get back to you when I’ve managed to crawl out of this rabbit hole and ready to face the world again.