by Danielle Christopher
The phone is warm in my hand. My cheeks feel warm. I have a euphoric feeling. My other hand is still hovering over the keyboard.
I am in awe of what I just did on that phone call. I said no to a job that would have been summer long.
Currently I have a modest work load on top of being a mom. I do as much as I can when my daughters are occupied at school or therapy.
I know why I said no and why it feels so good.
1. Fear of taking on too much that I cannot deliver. I mistakenly did too much when my personal life was under despair. I messed up a job badly. I took a lot of time off from work to get well.
2. Summer is a month away. Everyone needs to kick back when it is backyard season.
3. My oldest daughter is transitioning from kindergarten to Grade 1. I will need to work on some writing and reading exercises with her to allow her to start school well.
4. My youngest daughter will continue to have therapy lessons. That takes time for me to take her.
5. Time is too short. My girls are getting older so quick. I never want them to have their summer memories of mom glued to a computer.
My youngest comes over to me demanding to be picked up. I scoop her up and give her a big hug.
I will always have work opportunities. Being here to raise my daughters is worth everything. Being honest with myself and potential clients is worth it.
Danielle Christopher is a stay-at-home mom of two daughters and a freelance writer. Her teen story is in the collection “Parent/Teen Stories: Without Judgement”. She lives with her husband of seventeen years and her girls in Langley, B.C.. Follow her on Twitter.